God. Today is the first day I felt a total lost.
Okay now is my most hated subject. Better listen to that fart before I end up dying in her hands!

Gah... okay the unshaven armpit women is back. Bye!

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Somebody asked me,
"What is your future plans? What do you want to be?"

Those questions strike me and I went blur!
Although I have thoughts and dreams of studying overseas but my parents - I don't want to trouble them in their current age. Furthermore, my sister might be going back to Ngee Ann to take up a degree in the Wheelock College.

And my future remains unclear.

Yeah... I want to study overseas. I really want to but most likely, I have to work after school ends. My mom mention that once we enter University, it is our responsibility. They will leave the fees and everything to our own responsible.

I wonder how. I still have about less then 3 years more to think about my uncertain future.
Where I want to continue my further studies?
Japan, UK or USA.
Australia? Not a minute.

But the cost - that is the problem. Either that or I can continue my studies in local universities which will be bloody challenging. For now, I just have to study hard for my current studies.

the rest, I shall leave it to fate.

thank you friend. for making me think about my future once again.

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Hmmm, I have been VERY busy!

I have classes after school. I have to work. And lastly, the curfew - which will be gone by tomorrow.

I shall reveal what I have been doing. It is Bikram Yoga.
I have to do it every single day. I am addicted to it. But now, damn. I miss it for 2 days and I am feeling very worn! When you do it, it feels rather refreshing.

Anyway, I won't be joining it until for another 3 months? I need to work for the money cos it cost like 200++ per month. It's fucking costly and damn, my dad will strangle if I ever mention it.

Going to ship the book from USA if I cannot find it at Kinokuniya or Borders tomorrow.
Going to make do with it without the heater. Hope Singapore won't rain so often.

Okay I am going off to do another form of Yoga. Hatha this time. I don't really like it though.

Sian~

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Class end early today. Because we did all that are needed.
Classmates are playing counter strike from just now. Man.... I want mine to be downloaded.

Then I can play with people from other block =)
Going off for another session now.

Well soon. After I am done with the practice for tomorrow's performance.

Dang.... I am so lazy to do that. I just want to sleeep....

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God!
Another 3 hours of COS! It is not the worst subject. Infact it is easy and interesting because you are learning about the computer parts. Like the course name Computers and Operating System.

The mentor is the oh god!
She is like giving me sleeping pill la.
I have to keep drowning myself with gallons of water and thank god I bought some sweets =)

But I have to stop consuming them at 3.

shit.concentrate. concentrate.

byebye.

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WP now.
Making groups. Wahh.... I feel so malas sey.

I really want to sleep truthfully saying.
Cannot wait for 6 0'clock to strike. And I will be in that HOT room again.

And when I say hot... there is meanings to it.
And I am more flexible you know.

My Web Publishing mentor is sooo hyper!!
But I still have the drowsing effect. Mainly because I slept late yesterday.
But tonight, I am going to sleep early. I have plans to sleep at 11:30pm sharp.

Learning about HTML now. Not going to be easy so I better concentrate. Bye~

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Some people are asking me what in the fuck world am I doing early in the morning out of the house!? Yeah, getting out of this place at 5:30am in the morning sounds very much ridiculous and out of this world.

But then... I really have something on and I am really enjoying the sessions although I am trying to fit it into my evening time slot so that I won't have to wake up at 4:00am in the morning just to prepare myself! I will reveal everything when I am going to end my session which is very soon ....

Man. I feel sad for leaving that place. I am enjoying it now actually. Got praises and all. But the place is expensive as hell! My dad told me to dig my grave if I ever think of joining. But, I still am by the way only that it might be next year? Maybe, I will just cancel my plan about going to Thailand at the end of this year just for the course.

A hint : It's very hot.

Ahhh... and I am going for a Belly Dancing trial this coming Monday with my younger sister =)
It only cost SGD5. I did not want to initially but decided to join just to accompany her.

And I am going to have my basic archery course this coming saturday. Really cannot wait!
And I have asked my dad for SGD40 for it. He is giving it =) New sports bra this weekend =)

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First week and still a briefing....
When oh when are we going to start on our real lesson....
God. We need to buy books I think.... okay my mistake.... its not a must.

Starting on topic now. Bye.

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I know that I am going to sound like a damn spoilt brat.

I just asked my dad for a hell lot of stuffs.
Sending me to Raffles Link. Asking him to buy for me those Nike and Adidas sports bra that I am aiming. Then there is the train concession that I don't really need. I asked him to get me one just because I have to get out of the house at 5:30am on 3 days this week to get to a class that I am going to sign up this afternoon.

And he just oblige to my request.
Man, I shan't be mean to my dad anymore! He is like the kindest dad one can ever get!
I am a daddy's girl. My mom is more on the discipline =/
Almost anything that I need, my dad will just fork out for me without much questioning.
And I told him that if I get my driving license, to get me a car.

He told me to wait. This time he has to discuss with my mom....

Well, but you see, that is good enough for me. Atleast he care to think about it.

Yeah, there are times that he likes to break promises and that what pisses me off most of the time but now I got to understand that he is not as young as he used to be. Me and my dad has a 30 years age gap. But it does not seem that apparent.
Firstly, he got a young look! So does my mom.
And secondly, he is not narrow minded. Okay - to a certain extent. But he does try to understand me.

You know, the trouble I got in school thus far - well, he never scolded me about it at all! He just said

Those words stuck to me like super glue. It is interesting. And whatever course I want to join, be it engineering or even film,media studies - although he has his doubt about the latter ones - he supports me without any condition.

Well, he only has problem with how I spent my money like for example, my job salaries. I spent all of it on traveling. KL - countless of time, Melbourne, Bali and Bangkok. It is pretty a lot for a short span of just 4 months!

Hmmm, I love my dad. More than that stupid fucking brother of mine. He is just a useless pit who owes everbody without a care to pay back. I hope he gets his dues soon. I am just so sick at looking at his face. And his girlfriend. 3 years older. Not a v anymore and smokes as though that is her oxygen.

Everything change.
My dad is getting on better in life. My brother is getting worst as time pass by.

I hope he don't come and look for me when he is in a grave pit.
And I hope my dad can retire soon.... =)
He has the money, but he just feel like working will he is 65 I think.

My dad is my latest hero.

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ALRIGHT!

I really like archery. Like for real.
I have never felt so happy for joining a CCA before!

And yes - I am aiming for the jacket! Damn. I need to join a lot of competition but hell who cares. I really like the CCA. So no lost on my part except for the vigorous training - I think. And I really want to win the competition that I am joining.

I went to my belly dancing studio today. Wanted to start all over again but I decided that since school has officially begun, it is best not to put anything fixed into my schedule until perhaps 2 weeks after today whereby everything will be more stable.

I am going to work on Monday and Tuesday. Both afternoon session and I am perhaps ending both at .... 8:30pm? I have the choice of what time to go home. So no lost. I have to go home by then because I need to catch on my Indonesian drama at 9:00pm. Yess ... Yess... My another obsession. Deal with it.

Then... I have to start sleeping in early. I must try to start bunking in by 12:30AM latest. It will be tough for me if I keep my current lifestyle.

The only day I can sleep late is Friday, Saturday and Monday because on Tuesday, I will be starting school at 10:00AM and end at 12 noon. I can just go home and snug in my bed after lesson.

And I will be having my basic archery course soon... Cannot wait for it.

Oh yes. I need to buy those stuff to protect your finger. I only shot about less then 15 arrows and my finger hurts like fuck! OhOh! And stupid sports bra!! I need to find my nike!

Ahhh..... BRA!!! I want my nike sports bra back damn it!

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So yesterday I wasn't really in a good mood.

I got lost when the teacher explain about excel.
And in total, I have about 3 assignments to pass up by today which thankfully, I have completed it by 2am and I only slept for a freaking 5 hours before having to wake up once again and attend school.

And I have to specially thank HUDA for her idea!
It totally inspired me on how to design my powerpoint.
You see, as easy as the assignment may sound, which is to make a presentation about yourself, I will have a fucking problem with it still if I do not have a theme as a background.

So Huda, trying to help me just mention the word black & white.
Ideas did not hit me suddenly but I slowly tried to think hard on what I could do with black and white. And yeah .... it hit me when I reached that my name sounds like "SHOE" and that I have to do some slides on school too which equates to children wearing school shoe.

So yeah. My slides are full of BLACK AND WHITE PLUS SHOE!
There are colours too. On my hobbies and interest section whereby everything is coloured =)

I am really proud of my work. And Huda thank you for your idea.

Aslam too for the beatty picture. It was tough searching for one.

After today, I am going to go home and just lay flat on the bed. Mind you I sacrifice my indonesian seinetron for the project working from 8pm to 2am none-stop even for a break.

The ICT students are going to have performance coming up on the 25th of April and I think I am a part of it too. Tough. I think only the Infocomm newbies have different timetable fo the first week. The rest of the school seem to tbe following their real timetable diligently.

By the way. You know what. I woke up at 8am for nothing!
Apparently the teacher reported sick and there were no replacement. And we were only informed about it at 10am.

How cool is that?
So efficient.

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Hmmm... so how was today?

Many are asking me the same question because yesterday was a totally awkward day.

Today is perfectly fine because I only have school for 2 hours =)
It is IS day therefore only one lesson is conducted within a time span of 2 hours.
Tomorrow, I will end at around 4.
Damn. I hate late hours. Those are my nap time and I have to have those if I want to survive the morning hours and also to stay through the night till 2 am to watch whatever drama that are updated.

I know. I should be stopping that.
But it is the only time for me to chill and let my mind wonder....

If I have a major project coming up or an exam, I will put a break to it 1 week before it commence. By the way. Did you know ..... okay I forgot what I want to say.

School tomorrow at 9. My life just cannot get any better.
Incase you didn't notice, it was meant to be sarcastic.

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I saw my seniors today.
Or are they who you call mentor?

Anyway, the girl is pretty and the boy has a very you know - those entertaining kind of look that will never fail to make the class laugh. Anyway, I think I can live through this course. I am going to be the fucking guai kia that will not get into trouble no more.

I have experiment everything in secondary school.
Detention, Suspension and a conduct record full of bruises.
All I did not try was expel - that would mean grave for me.

So yeap.
I only have one thing in mind and that is to get god damn great marks.
Although that will mean to blow away everything extravagant like going shopping in the name of studying. Such sacrifice is rare in my life and I hope it will last.

I got to bath!!
What the hell! I slept in my sweating+raining clothes!

By the way, believe it or not, I still could not remember my friends name except for Jessica, Jolene, Alvin and Calvin. Other than that, well .... I know the Indonesian guy name is like .... Hariyono or something. The rest, it will take me sometime to remember.

I need to start work on my damn brain. I have a freaking lousy memory

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Here I am in school.
Alone.
Waiting for weiling to come over to fetch me.

I got VERY lost on the first day of school.
And my sister aint helping me at all. So much for graduating. She don't even know when in the blue hell my block is in!!
What she have been doing in school thus far is still a mystery.

I entered the lecture theater with sweats drenching my clothes and skin.
I am damn hell going home later to have a good long bath.
This is the problem when you do not have a friend in the same course as you.
Sam said a guy by the name of Greg is in the same course as me and her description:
"Okay anyways greg is this really tall guy"

Thank you sam. That really helps me a lot on who Greg is.
I am still waiting for Ah Ling to fetch me.Damn thirsty. My bottle is at home. I forgotten to bring it over. Got to make new friends. Super friendly la. But I am the trouble la. I don't really talk much on first meeting.

And now, I really don't know where I am suppose to head to after this.
Should have just left home or stayed there. If they ask me anything, I just say, I got lost for a whole 6 hours and I just locate the building but it was over.

This whole week, the timetable is very different. Because of not attending the stupid orientation. Now nobody in my class are online. Damn it.


I don't like school!!
Friends are okay but not the school...
Can't they just be the same size as Beatty?!
It will be much more easier for life.
And mind you, some student took their motorbike to drive from one end to the other for lunch.
Supposingly the other side of the building have nicer food to savour.

This school has alot of funny character.
Too funny for my taste.

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School is starting tomorrow.
And I am having a half-ass feeling about attending it.

Damn. I really dislike the moment school is about to commence.
Nothing can beat the time I have during my Primary six and Secondary 4 years.
Maybe, just maybe I will be able to enjoy myself on my third year of polytechnic life.

Which is another 2 years from now. That is way too long for me -___-"

I need to buy a new pair of sneakers. After 2 weeks, I will assign certain days for me to wear my heels. I shan't let my heels rot at home just because I will be pro-active in school soon - I hope.

Damn. school is such a chore.

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The first place that I want to lose fat is my ....... breast!!
They are a humongous beast that just obstruct my life. Currently, I am surfing YouTube to search for a way to lose breast fat through exercising. I know this sound very vulgar and if you think I am showing off about me having a humongous tits then you are so wrong.

I have been having trouble with big tits as long as I can remember. They are a hassle. Troubling me to find a perfect fit clothes. My bra will not fit my breast after 3 months of wearing it cos they are constantly growing. Hell yeah I am pissed off.

I have to buy new bras every 3 month for nothing! Waste my money on support when I think I could have save it up and go for a reduction.

Damn. I really hate huge breast. If it were a normal decent cup, I don't mind.

But a C cup - it's just too much.
I am going on to D soon if I am not careful.
Therefore.

FIGHT BREAST FATS!!

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To hell la with the stupid compulsory orientation!
I know I will miss out a hell lot of things. Like making new friends instantly.... but damn.

I just hate orientation and the stupid games. So maybe when school reopen, I will hurriedly huddle up a few friends. I shall try to be open. I am lying to my family that it is not a compulsory orientation - it's my mistake.

Damn. I am going to be crushed if they call my house.
Nevermind. I shall switch the home phone on. hehehehehehehe.

So if you happen to call in the morning, please call my handphone instead. I am reachable only through that damn portable thing.

Now.... where the hell did I put my damn phone.....

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School is starting soon.
Real soon.
I have orientation to go which I am now unsure of whether to attend it or not.
The word compulsory is not a problem for me.

You know, now I am starting to miss my secondary school life. The fun we had. All the backstabbing and how we made up at the end of the day. The laughter that was often heard and of course, the bargaining we have with our teachers.

It was really memorable.
4E4. The lazy class. The violent class. The clown class.

We are everything that 4E1 are not.

But we had the fun and the joy out of everything we do. I really do miss the class. The familiar faces. The stupid faces and the cow face.


I know very well that I have to move on. Huda did that very well in fact.
But then, making friends was never my forte. I suck at it.

God. How am I going to survive. I have no one in the same course as me. That is the one thing that I dread the most. At least if I have someone that I know, my life will be a little bit more easier.

Man. I am missing all my old days.
The numerous number of boys that I had crush on.
The number of people I punch and kick them.
The number of people that made my bloody boil.

I just miss my old life. It was perfect the way it was.
But life just had it's way of shortening happiness.

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I need to have a talk with my dad soon.

I have already like check out websites on language studies in Beijing. I know the plan is still so vague. I need roughly SGD5000 to go there. Basically it is to cover my accommodation and school fees. Going there to study, not for shopping.

The plan is to go there in 2010.
I can get half of the money by then. I want my parents to support the other half of it.
Its for the future benefit. Not for my greed.

I am so lazy to blog. I have alot to complain but little words to explain my desire. How I wish there is one word that could explain the simplicity of it.

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Well. No pictures from the Bangkok trip.
I did not bring my camera at all as I had forgotten about it when I was on my way to the airport. But I will try to get it extracted from my cousin's camera.

To say it simply. The trip was a kick ass.!
Shopping was super awesome! Only that I have bad encounter with this one girl - my colleague.
Treating me like a camera girl just because I dislike taking photos. Damn.
And she always fuss about getting her stuffs. Like what the fuck!
She completed her lists while as for me, I only completed my T-shirt section.

I did not get the shoes that I want. The dresses that I desire is completely out. I had none. I only bought T-shirts and no bottoms! Be it jeans or skirt! Man. This has got to be the first overseas shopping that I have ever gone to without buying any bottom! Ridiculous.

I will be going to Thailand again for sure. The people are nice. But there are some vendors owner who just gave us a fucking shit attitude that I felt like slapping their face with the plastic bags that I was carrying. From the first experience, I only go to the vendors if he/she has a friendly face.

Floating market was super! I only bought one bag of wallets from there. The price are an ultimate ripoff. My cousins and colleague bought a hell lot of stuffs from there only to find that they sell it at a much cheaper price in pratunam and chatuchak. I knew that fact therefore it prevented me from buying the stuffs there.

Its not my fault that they spent a bomb there and got rip for their money. I told them a gazillion time that street markets sell at a cheaper price but did they listen to me?

Nope.

All in all I saved myself a bomb. I end up with the most money reason being

• I know where to get cheap stuff.
• I did not get all of my stuff.

I did the best I could to help them save money. But sorry. If my concern goes unheard off, I don't find the need to voice it out again.


I almost died when a friend of mine questioned me about Islam. I mean. I am not that pious. Neither am I that wild. But basically, for me I thought knowing what is right and what is wrong is enough. How wrong was I.

I can end up being a fried pork if people question me anything about Islam outside the context about what is allowed and what is not. I don't really know the reason behind them too!

How naive can I get about these kind of stuffs?

I am a little ashame to be called a muslim.

Okay must go pray. Bye.

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One more day to Bangkok.
I have yet to pack ... As always.

Time table will only be out on the 12th of April.
And I have a compulsory orientation on the 11th which I am fucking lazy to attend to.
Damn, there is a high possibility that I will skip it .... my speciality.

Working today at 3 but I am going there at 4
Currently watching Hello! Miss.
First korean drama that I am watching in full without forwarding anything more than 10 minutes.

I am changing SGD600 in Singapore first. Hope it's enough.Dad going to wire transfer me the money if it is not enough.

By the way. I am not spoilt.

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