black&gold.

Monday, May 19, 2008

loving and hating

There are still so many country that I wish to go!

There is the crazy shopping Hong Kong,pretty South Korea and exotic Japan.

I have been to quite a number of country but it will never cure my hunger for the need to travel!
Then, there is USA with its truckloads for discount shops and factory outlet!
There is still Thailand - I am missing that country very much!
Indonesia too - one of the few best undiscovered treasure hunt!

Dubai - for its exotic and TAX FREE INVASION!
Paris and Venice for the romantic views.

Australia for its weather! - yup they got great weather especially Melbourne where unexpected weather occurs.

But for now, I just want to travel throughout Asia first. I find it real funny to travel to white's land only to know nothing about Asian.
Yup so, I want to go to Hong Kong, Korea and Japan.

My parents are a bad ass though.
They only like one country - Saudi Arabia. So chances of me bring them to other country is as slim as an anorexic ass.

Moving on...
My sister tried talking to me today.
I had enough of her breaking her promises. Therefore I ignored her.
Truth to be told. I want to talk to her but I have a very stubborn heart.

I am just so tired of people taking me as though I am nothing!
Taking me for granted. Chunking me after using me and deem me as useless!
There are reasons why I am hard to communicate. Why I am not open.

There are countless of time that people make use of me. Be it from using my money without paying back to letting me deal with the whole project.
I am damn lucky to be in 4E4 last year whereby they treat me as equal.

Do I have the look that says:
"BOSS ME AROUND!"

Fuck it. I have no desire to be someone's dog!
Kiss my fucking fat ass if you think I will ever be!

There are some people that I am having issues with now.
My class - they consist of really nice bunch of people who knows how to have fun without going wild*. My family, I am having issues with my older sister (that BIG BITCH!) and my older brother (that fucking BASTARD! - it is because I hate his fiancee!)

Man. I feel as though I am acting in a serial drama.

Okay back to that Big Bitch. She promised me to pay for my belly dancing class. But she took her own sweet time to not pay me. I thought it was because I was fighting with my mom but it was not! She REALLY had NO intention to give me the money!
She said she felt wrong.

WHAT KIND OF SIN IS THAT WHEN THE WHOLE ACADEMY ONLY CONSISTS OF GIRLS!
THERE ARE ABSOLUTELY NO GUYS!

I am fucking pissed off with her until now. I had to dig into my own savings to supplement this class when I had intention to use it for a Muay Thai school conducted by real Muay Thai boxer.
I really felt like slapping her hard right now and kicking her in the stomach!
She is sick now - that is the only reason holding me back.

Yeah. Whoever got me as their sister are fucking lucky!

To summarise the whole thing - I just fucking hate that fucking bitch!

I am sorry but I cannot hold onto my anger anymore. Vulgarities just spew out like my native language. I am crying in anger right now.
Cibai! I really hate her!

Labels: May 2008