i have typed out a really long post.
but i decided not to post it here.
i need time to reflect on what is going on.
it is really troubling me badly. i might not be posting anything in this blog in the meantime.
i need to digest what is actually the cause of it all. why is it happening and what cause it to happen.
yes. when i have a major problem, i like to lament over it.
infact, there was one time i had a huge problem that i went emo for almost 6 weeks so that i can think through everything.

this time. i think it is my fault. i am sorry.
the fault lies within me. but you know how i am don't you.
when you have already forgiven me, you should know what is needed to be done.
as for me now. i am going to bed and emo.

night.

it hurts when people tell you to stop being a fake when you are not.