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Saturday, July 12, 2008

sunny day

Today has got to be one of the most fantastic day ever!
Firstly, I got back half of my form. I have totally lost it on Thursday - on that later.
Then I had ROTI PRATA at JALAN KAYU - it was great I tell you!
AND lastly,
NO E-LEARNING!
Tian la! That is the greatest news EVER!

Okay... now. First and foremost this is going to be a long post. I think. I have alot to type now.

Okay. Sorry to Jolene, EngHui, Jerfen, Alvin and Gang.
I have NEVER dine with you guys before. I am sorry for being hmm... an unfriendly little prick and in class always showing that stupid black face. You guys are a bunch of lively and noisy people who are fun to hang out with but you know, being the ONLY MALAY and did I mention GIRL in the whole IT cohort, it was a tough fact for me to swallow. And yes, I did dread the thought of coming into the course because of that.

But you guys are really nice to me even though I have always been this sickening prick!
I really have to thank you guys for it and yeah ... I can see myself opening up more =)
Although not much but yeah ... changes do happen at least.

Psssttt - It took me 2 and 1/2 years to open up in secondary school!!
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Alright.
I will have 10 supports for every black list!

The above, if you don't understand, then forget it.

Okay. So on Thursday, I was told by a senior that my anchoring point is going towards my right and pressing my nose. I believe it but when picture was taken and I saw it with my own blind as bat eyes, I got a little upset.

NOPE!
Nothing about the senior that took the picture! I swear man upon my Al-Quran!

I was upset about my form. I realised my release and follow through is getting all wrong again as I wasn't consistent. I can feel it myself without others telling me. My bow arm was fucking weak that it totally destroys my mood on that very day. And to add that my anchoring point is all disastrous! It just add on to the troubles on my shoulder.
But at the same time, I am freaking thankful man to the seniors that point out my mistakes!

Well, I was feeling rather down on that day. I even have thoughts of quitting!! I know this is fucking pussy of me to even think about it but yeah ... my low point is DAMN low for me that I feel like stabbing myself with my own arrows!

TO HUDA, MY CLASSMATES AND SENIORS!!
IF I, SITI SYUHARAH SUPARDI, EVER THINK OF QUITTING ARCHERY, I WILL GIVE YOU THE PERMISSION TO SMACK MY HEAD!! - not so hard okay.

Enghui ahhh and Huda ahhh ... I know you guys are looking forward to this man!!
Jolene! You can like call me whatever man to get some senses into my head again!

And to add on. I do not have the feeling of talking to anyone on that day especially when I shoot because I wanted to know why am I shooting like shit and what I needed to correct. I wanted to try and solve it myself then because I am impatient and I cannot wait for sunday to have CJZ to help me. I was in a mood at that time whereby I can shout my lungs out at anybody that got on my nerves.

I just kept telling myself that I am a junior.
That reason alone is enough to stop me from shouting.

Okay anyhoo... on the way back home, I told this to Yishan and thank you la babe! Somehow, your words made me feel a hell lot better and I have my confidence and fucking BIG EGO back with me!! That was when I decided that mulling over what is over is not going to make me improve in any way at all!

That was when I decided to like take things into my own hand.
Since I cannot run, I decided to do something about my arms and decided to do 50 push up a day - girl style. I am trying to tone up my stomach again like what I had in secondary 2 - I had 2 abs then! - I know unbelieveable but yes! I had 2 abs! I am hitting the Bishan gym again soon.
So that when I go suntanning, at least I need not be ashame of my flabby stomach.

So yeap... that is what happen on thursday.

Today, somehow, I solve half of the problems =)
Only left with my body moving don't know which way la. 360 degree I think.
Then my bow arm and my release plus follow through.
Oh and my shoulders too! And I need to learn how to push and pull!!
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To ALL of my NON archery friends.

I AM REALLY SORRY!

Due to archery, I have to forgo some of my responsibility as a friend. I may break promises. I may cancel a meet up. I may be too busy with archery to think about anything else. Basically I am sorry.

But these are the sacrifices that I have to make in order to get to where I want. This is the first time ever that I am trying to pursue something that I really want. I hope you guys will understand. If you guys don't, I will understand though the reason.

To HyungJin. I like you too and I know what you are hoping for.
Please stop and don't continue that hope.
I may be a disappointment. I do not even have time for my prayers now let alone my friends and what makes you think I have the time for you?
I like how everything is now. Please don't make this hard for me alright.
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And. yes.
In archery for the juniors for the female, I only think that Wen Ting is my competitor.
As for now. She is enthusiastic about it and is making vast improvement!
Therefore, I do see her in my eyes as the only one worthy of being my opponent.

I know what I typed above sounds fucking cocky and I am NOT saying nor whispering nor thinking that I am the best in this sports arena.
I am lazy to reason out. If you want to think that I am boastful and whatever, so be it la.
As long as you are freaking happy about it.

For the guys. As for now it will be Hellsing and Ekang.

And Zijie man! Wah Piang wei!
His back muscles sibei the hen cool sia!!
I am going to hit the gym and carry as much weights as him man!
Yeah right~ like real only
BUT since he pulls 60kg for back muscle (right?)
I will aim and strive to pull 30kg of it!
Currently, I can only pull like 15kg I think.
I think it is 15kg. If not it should be 12kg - if there is every such thing.

For biceps, he is pulling 20kg on the bar thing.
I can only pull 10kg. Nothing more than that for now.
Not in the mood to be bulky for now la.
Maybe in 1 years time I will!!
Girl Power man!

Sometimes, I wonder if I am born in the right gender.
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Wahsey! My post damn wordy sia.
I just don't get it why some of you bother to read it through la!
Got so much time is it?!

Search for a dream and pursue it!

I have mine now and I am not saying it is all smooth sailing.

But it worth every fucking moment of my life!

Labels: July 2008